My grandma is dying, and I am having a hard time figuring out what to feel. My grandmother was narcissistic, selfish, and crotchety. She used to fuss over preparing food for; she acted like she was doing this great service to the family by feeding her grandchild. Then, she would serve me in these little
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Still Grieving After All These Years…
Still Grieving After All These Years, OR, When Your Emotional Drain is Clogged I imagine your first thought, as a reader, is: “Wow Caitlin, that is a pretty terrible title. I thought you were supposed to be good at this writing thing?” Well, a) thank you for checking in… and b) I have selective writer’s
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In the beginning of 2014, I started writing for AfterTalk about grieving for a father. I did it to appease a family friend. Back then, I think we had three people who wrote the blog posts on the site, and the other two were actively running it. Some of you didn’t know me then, and
A Daughter, Grieving and Food
Memories do not always appear conveniently. Often, you can’t find them during a therapeutic conversation. Shortly afterwards, you can find yourself thrust into a grief ridden flashback, in the middle of your busy day, and completely alone. Recently, I was reading a book for school on “the globalization of the American psyche.” I had just